I spit these words with a venomous tongue
Adrenaline lunged, killing like Attila the Hun
Indiscriminate, even when I know I should run
Illegitimate actions trying to block out the sun
Sit back and I’m stunned – I can’t believe the things I’m doing
I wanted everything but now I’ve laid it all to ruin
I’m moving through stages of stress incomprehensible
Living in different rooms and I’m expendable
Does it matter at all that I was really trying
To lay it all down on the line? She thinks I’m lying
I went too far in hopes of making a home
And now it’s me, myself, and my microphone
But none of it means anything and machetes sting my steps
A thousand blades caress my neck
slice precisely with each breath
I would lay down now and rest but I am cursed to wear the blood
Of the woman that I loved

I don’t know where this road goes, but it is long and I must roam
Far from home, all alone
exiled, with nothing but the styles I’ve grown
Skipping stones sink down below eventually
depending on the throw’s trajectory
and I’m a reject who goes splash...
(Just relax and take your last gasps)


I would throw it all away, all of the things that I have known
All the silly games I play and all the times that I’m not at home
And all the books, and all the records, I would burn the studios
Grow my hair and shave my face and stop wearing stupid clothes
I’d never write another word or read a poem or compose
These beats, I’d never speak, I’d never sing and I suppose
That I would do anything, I’d never eat, I’d never learn
I’d never ask another question, never sleep and never stir
I’d never kiss the gift of water with these lips and cross the sands
I’d never tingle as my finger traces hearts upon her hands
I’d never see another sunrise or take any other pleasure from the sky
If it meant that I could find a bit of that one more time
I would walk away from everything with meaning for me
But I shouldn’t have to
if that makes me an asshole then I am sorry
Life goes on. We live with it as we must
Me? I love too much, but when it’s rough it’s not enough